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Jul 11, 2018

Why am I the way that I am?

I have this feeling inside me that makes me want to die. I push people away when I want to pull them in. I fight so hard not to feel how I feel. I just

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Jun 08, 2018

My Bully

My Bully, I have a current bully She never leaves me alone It started off all friendly But her evilness was soon shown It started with the judgement

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Jun 08, 2018


Sadness, alone, afraid, saddest of sad. This is what depression mostly is. Suicide, pills, living hell, dark places, not happy. This is what it is,

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Jun 08, 2018

Should I still be alive

My days are always ashy grey, the nights are too. As long as I lay down and stare at my wall, all I see is the disappointment and what shame I brought

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May 23, 2018

The Darkness Within

Dark thoughts in my mind Empty feelings I try to hide Panic grips me in the night Refusing to let me win this fight Everyday I tell more lies Saying always

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Feb 12, 2018

Natural Remedies For Depression

An overview of natural remedies for depression

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Nov 03, 2017

My Bully

I have a current bully She never leaves me alone It started off all friendly But her evilness was soon shown It started with the judgement “wow, you

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Oct 17, 2017


I am a mess; Laying in a chaotic half-bedroom, On an inflatable bed, on a pile of bloodstained blankets and stuffed animals, disregarded. I am a hurricane;

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Oct 17, 2017

The cycle

I can feel, My brain telling me to cry, I need to let it out, I am stressed, scared, sad. My body won’t let me. They are in constant war. My life:

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Oct 17, 2017


Depression. I hate that word. Happy wife. Happy life. Right? That's what they say. Mental illness. Ugh. Even worse. I have it all. Husband. Well

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Oct 17, 2017

The Whip

The beat of my life is the crack of a whip. Life beats me as I try to beat it. I beat the life out of life ‘til I’m both beaten and beat. They say:

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Jun 21, 2017


I don't really know what to do right now. I feel like most of the time, especially during the day/morning and when I'm busy, I feel fine and don't really

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Jun 21, 2017

Dear Depression

I called the receptionist to make an appointment with you Why don’t you ever remember? I scheduled for never But you made another in home visit I wasn’t

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Jun 21, 2017

You Hurt Me

YOU HURT ME Please take the pain from my heart, I have tried and tried for a new start. Your words that hurt me make me cry. They hurt so bad I

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Mar 15, 2017

A Depression Poem: Doctor Doctor

A Depression Poem: Doctor Doctor I feel like a black cloud I ruin conversations If I say my thoughts out loud Doctor Doctor When I wake up I cry

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