Depression? Need someone to talk to
I'm posting on here just because I need someone to talk to and also when talking on the phone etc it's easy to be overheard.
I'm quite a reserved person and since going to uni('m 18 and in my first year) I've found it hard making a lot of friends and tend to get quite lonely at halls.
I stay in my room and while sometimes I'll be perfectly fine there will be times where it hits and I can feel really down.
I tend to cry a lot hysterically over small worries or even just watching a tv programme.
Even when I went on holiday last year, which was fun, I remember a lot of times locking myself in the bathroom and crying hysterically and I don't know why. I also find it hard to concentrate and let loose because I'm just worrying over stuff.
I tend to suffer from stress and I worry a lot.
Sometimes I just look in the mirror and just hate how I look, how I am etc. I just feel soo eughh (to put it in the only way I can think of!)
I've had quite a few major events in the past, a few deaths and family struggles (some still on-going) leading to a lot of stressing out. I'm the sort of person who'll act strong outside but when I'm on my own I can burst out crying.
I feel like I don't have anyone really to talk to properly- no one that will understand. I feel that people would be judgemental if I said I was feeling depressed and when I mention it to a couple of friends they
just take it lightly as like feeling a bit 'blue'.
Is this depression?
(ps. sorry for the long message)
Oh Sarah, my heart goes out to you. It sounds like you have been through so much lately. You mention that you "cry for no reason". I think that is far from the truth. You mentioned so many reasons to feel sad.
Life is full of challenges and hard times. Nobody is immune. It is the way we choose to handle them that make all the difference. However, with that said, we can't do it alone. It is important to have some kind of support.
It does sound like you may be struggling with depression. We all do from time to time and it is, very much, treatable! Consider going to my site and take a depression test
to learn more. Also, I would urge you to check out my Depression Hotlines
page. I have a boat load of resources on that page that can prove useful. All of these lines have qualified, supportive people that you can reach out to 24/7, anonymously, so you can get the support that you need. They should be able to refer you to someone in your local area that you can see in person as well.
I wish you all the best. I hope this helped. If it wasn't enough, or you need more support, please reach out.
Sending you light and love,
P.S. I did not mind the long message at all! I am so glad that you reached out for some support. You deserve to be surrounded with love and support so you can get through this difficult time!!!