I just need somone to talk to and who won't judge me! I must say I do wish to die and have tried several times.
Hello - I am sorry this took a couple of days to get back to you. You write very little but your words are still very powerful.
I can understand your need to talk to someone who won't judge you. That is one amazing privilege I have being a therapist. We all need someone who can be objective, lend an ear or a shoulder and give us some guidance.
I am not sure if you've seen it but I do have a page with a list of depression hotlines
. Most are available 24/7 and they are all trained to help you. They can listen, give advice and also recommend local resources for you.
You mention that you are suicidal. There is a suicide hotline on this page as well. I strongly recommend that you reach out and talk to them. It is so important that you don't feel alone or unsupported. While you may not feel like it, there are so many people that really do care and will support you on your journey.
I hope that you find that support and that you are able to discover how amazing you are! We are all amazing in our own way and I am sure you are no exception.
Also know that I am here if you need me.
All the best,