I AM VERY DEPRESSED AND EMOTIONAL ALL THE TIME
I am 46 years old - a professional female. I am married- have a 20 yr old son and 12 yr old daughter.
I have absolutely everything I ever need and want materially, but I am deeply unhappy.
I usually write my feelings down and analyse them when I am upset but this time I cannot help myself.
I feel unappreciated by my whole family and my clients.
I have never had anybody in my life that loved me as a woman, except my husband for just a short period. After the kids were born and my career kicked off, he alienated me. My husband doesn't acknowledge my worth and believes in male domination and as a result we don't get along.
I normally shut out all my emotions and put up a huge front by laughing and being very happy in the presence of everyone I know but I set a time every evening when I lock myself in the bathroom to cry and feel sorry for myself without anyone knowing.I just feel like dying but i have responsibilities to care for my mum and my kids and so i cannot wish death on myself either.
I am a perfectionist at work and home and i think nobody likes me.
Can you tell me what to do with my miserable life?i think a drug addiction could make people around me wake up and realise how nasty they are to me.
please help me-i am desperate.
First and foremost, I want you to know that you are not alone! The experience you share is very similar to what I experienced. On the outside looking in, I had all me makings of a successful, happy life. On the inside, I was sad, numb, detached and hopeless.
You see, in addition to being a certified counselor, I too have struggled with depression. I built this site because I am passionate about letting people know they are not alone and that there is hope!
I have overcome my depression and want to help others do the same. I do offer personal and group coaching if you are interested in exploring that as an option. At the very least we can do a 30 minute, free consultation to get grounded on your key issues and the best path for healing.
If you are interested, please email me at SourceYourJoy@yahoo.com.
You need to know that you are loveable and worthy of living a happy, fulfilling life. That happiness does not hinge on those around you but what's inside you. With some honest, courage and commitment you really can be happy again.
With love and light,