https://www.depression-test.net/depression-test-blog.html The Depression Test Blog keeps you up-to-date with all additions and changes to the Depression-Test.net Web site. Subcribe here. en-us depression test Thu, 6 Feb 2020 20:21:32 -0500 Thu, 6 Feb 2020 20:21:32 -0500 depression-test.net https://www.depression-test.net/how-do-i-help-someone-that-doesnt-want-help.htmlb2c5745b3cf2104579f2ec693245fd27Not me, a friend of a friend is going through a very nasty divorce and is incredibly depressed and has reported that they are seeing things (we aren't Wed, 5 Feb 2020 11:48:32 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/just-for-me.htmlbfc94da35438c7525df52d6b925eb09bThere’s something inside me that you can’t see Twisted, wound tight like a tangle of pulsing vines Thick, knobbly, grey, it tightens and squeezes It’s Wed, 5 Feb 2020 11:30:00 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/im-trying.html9d8913843afb8d2245c077358b519311I'm living each day just going through the motions. I'm empty, I'm dying, but I'm trying. Each day the same routine. The same meals. The same people. Wed, 5 Feb 2020 11:21:55 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/who-am-i.html18646a336fe7b79f593b654a8b7106ecSabbing in my heart. Be strong. Protect, Beliefs, Friends. However strong I am... I don't unrecognize my face, Not in pictures, Not in the mirror. The Wed, 5 Feb 2020 11:18:19 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/enough.htmlfef72a719a097a6e311bf741106ee01dHere I go again Three bottles in Counting my sins Home alone again It's 5 in the morning Just me and HER At war again And I'm giving in Are you listening Wed, 5 Feb 2020 11:16:14 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/upon-this-bridge.html6c5807c0a24acf45190d03b34c9348f2upon this bridge his gaze it yurns as it stands so tall among these shallow ferns it looks over the city and dreams of a visit from a person who dearly Fri, 6 Dec 2019 19:25:59 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/the-walled-castle.html6939397db841027d72c87a6a10b295b9I am in a castle. It is round and tall. It is big, with stone passageways. There is a moat. Chains. There is no way in and no way out. I stand by the Fri, 6 Dec 2019 19:17:09 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/the-lone-wolf.html835d22de1138ac4b5357ae0b41e5715fThe Lone Wolf walks alone. He falls asleep in the shadows, to awake in darkness. He bows his head. He nods. The Lone Wolf shakes. The Lone Wolf cries Fri, 6 Dec 2019 19:14:27 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/the-fingerless-glove.htmlf2fe6035ad10714d88e781a1ea791542As you lay down beside me in peace whilst you sleep; I think of the pain thats stored in you so deep. Amazed every day just how you still show so much Tue, 11 Jun 2019 12:00:51 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/stressed.htmla8c2b2027b2db09d393ff146c75033a4Im stressed Im depressed My mind is a mess My heart is aching My soul is breaking I cant ever seem to get a rest But it is the best For someone like Thu, 30 May 2019 11:56:29 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/unsound-mind.html398c758acbb0df05d6a17c6841a86e59poems of an unsound mind easy to locate easy to find shallow depression unspoken confession a wantaway session escaping aggression character flawed Thu, 30 May 2019 11:48:28 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/depression-in-denial.htmla2b839d876a47c280ff603626b05e080Its like two symphonies clashing inside my head It makes you distrustful of your shadow The pain doesn’t go when you cough or swallow It makes me hot and Thu, 30 May 2019 11:45:21 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/i-feel-it.htmlc2a5308b193f24ee2d2d3a565db82985The feelings. Oh I wish they would come back to me again. The feelings I would feel as a child. Running around with my brother and the other children Thu, 30 May 2019 11:44:27 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/tattoo-my-pain.htmlf20ef695d5e8cfd6cb65696bf39b6bbbI can not think straight, am I here by choice or is this my fate? To live in this anquish and this torment and the voices of my thoughts My head is submerged Thu, 30 May 2019 11:40:10 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/depression-my-old-friend.html8304d51bde819b225a74074a442a15b4 Darkness my old friend you were there when no one was the hand once held will not be left That was the promise you made This is the promise you have Wed, 20 Feb 2019 13:42:26 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/my-love-affair-with-despair.html1555f6ddd8c807c60768f170b2ca8136My love affair with despair I'd say I've never known despair like this before ...but I'd be lying Countless times have I fallen into the abyss of darkness Wed, 20 Feb 2019 13:31:00 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/blue.html69e2579e733820f6fe78384662c30ed8I no longer wear makeup because the tears come down I used to have a face that smiled but life has turned it upside down my mother doesn’t get it my dad Wed, 20 Feb 2019 13:22:19 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/i-feel-depressed-and-anxious-but-am-i-really.html60ca834494e986cc5d9443083f4d0706I have felt depressed for an extended amount of time. I am at a new school and the girls are trying their best to be nice to me but at times they whisper Wed, 20 Feb 2019 13:14:06 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/the-bucket.html4980f40c1997ba0b382591a1b687189eDepression is like having one foot constantly stuck in a bucket. At the bottom of this bucket is a vortex. It’s a fine balance to stay out of this Wed, 16 Jan 2019 13:28:43 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/two-me.html96e8071eec2d3c723111241fee34e698I am two persons. One for my day. One for my night. The feeling of sinking seems right. I hope this pain will subside. But it remains silent inside. I Wed, 16 Jan 2019 13:20:08 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/undercurrents.htmle5c94351ab020506b1eac6f07721ee7a Undercurrents of emotions pulling me down Feeling like pain is going to make me drown Putting on a show that makes me look alright Happy by day but Tue, 7 Aug 2018 07:41:55 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/my-feet-prefer-air.htmlde9a1767175697307f60f476df513accMy feet prefer the air over air filling these lungs, It tends to feel as heavy as the guilt I have over things I haven't done. My feet prefer the air Fri, 27 Jul 2018 18:37:25 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/depression3.html61bbdabf5e96e48943d0b93f735808fcI'm sick and tired of your threats and your lies, I wish there were a way we could completely sever ties. Life would be brighter, less gloom, more Fri, 27 Jul 2018 18:28:10 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/why-am-i-the-way-that-i-am.html851e1830a1df74d002817760d4eb4d07I have this feeling inside me that makes me want to die. I push people away when I want to pull them in. I fight so hard not to feel how I feel. I just Wed, 11 Jul 2018 14:21:25 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/my-bully1.htmlf558ed266da89e821ab963f522260c86My Bully, I have a current bully She never leaves me alone It started off all friendly But her evilness was soon shown It started with the judgement Fri, 8 Jun 2018 16:07:24 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/depression2.htmle3c2cadb96adc19edb3f56c4d239e782Sadness, alone, afraid, saddest of sad. This is what depression mostly is. Suicide, pills, living hell, dark places, not happy. This is what it is, Fri, 8 Jun 2018 12:33:33 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/should-i-still-be-alive.html3594538cb459c9fd4731b37fa5eaa63fMy days are always ashy grey, the nights are too. As long as I lay down and stare at my wall, all I see is the disappointment and what shame I brought Fri, 8 Jun 2018 12:29:58 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/the-darkness-within.html5e53e248eeb7d25345fd72c4445c1926 Dark thoughts in my mind Empty feelings I try to hide Panic grips me in the night Refusing to let me win this fight Everyday I tell more lies Saying always Wed, 23 May 2018 14:09:15 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/natural-remedies-for-depression.html7fb638252f11a15b80c3220f370c2e82An overview of natural remedies for depression Mon, 12 Feb 2018 11:16:03 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/my-bully.htmla6f319dc0aaf9cb735f211d61f7ba048I have a current bully She never leaves me alone It started off all friendly But her evilness was soon shown It started with the judgement “wow, you Fri, 3 Nov 2017 12:58:31 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/empty1.html2e34d592516cb33d894d20efe2f9d3f5I am a mess; Laying in a chaotic half-bedroom, On an inflatable bed, on a pile of bloodstained blankets and stuffed animals, disregarded. 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I feel like most of the time, especially during the day/morning and when I'm busy, I feel fine and don't really Wed, 21 Jun 2017 11:05:47 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/dear-depression.htmlad725aac1f10d4c78b9173f9a621ef97I called the receptionist to make an appointment with you Why don’t you ever remember? I scheduled for never But you made another in home visit I wasn’t Wed, 21 Jun 2017 10:57:10 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/you-hurt-me.htmlcd0d152ba91d3c9a1a4b771bfd442607 YOU HURT ME Please take the pain from my heart, I have tried and tried for a new start. Your words that hurt me make me cry. They hurt so bad I Wed, 21 Jun 2017 10:48:18 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/a-depression-poem-doctor-doctor.htmlac0b70ae9637a5e8391f81a1d6fb4d40A Depression Poem: Doctor Doctor I feel like a black cloud I ruin conversations If I say my thoughts out loud Doctor Doctor When I wake up I cry Wed, 15 Mar 2017 22:08:11 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/thoughts.htmle60753a7b347f5b5833964d160809b29These thoughts I have are unpleasant I don’t know how to make them go away My sadness has taken over I don’t know how to fake a smile The scars I’ve tried Wed, 15 Mar 2017 21:54:17 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/my-apology.htmldc377fb47dc7019be2cb14ff471f7f54Will you tell them that I’m sorry? The people that I love? Tell them that I’m sorry I was never good enough. Tell them that I’m sorry that I was such a Fri, 2 Dec 2016 20:31:32 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/that-girl.html31d6a5a8454c2d0773a677c84038d157She sits on her bed crying on her own, no wonder she always think she's alone. When she cries, her heart start to ache, People start to think she's Thu, 10 Nov 2016 10:37:31 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/not-me.html1bb38dac56f960f12f01302903d07356Before you stands a shell of a person, void of any emotions except the sadness that has crept in and stolen my soul. My mind is cluttered with thoughts Thu, 10 Nov 2016 10:29:19 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/mind-disease.htmlcc02bfae9b20376fd109fcb81cf9f640Depression is something we don't see. Trust me It's as real as you or me Even if you may seen me Smile But inside it has been awhile I truly would only Mon, 29 Aug 2016 09:19:41 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/my-mother-shuts-down-my-ideas.htmlaac8ba785c83bd082c9fa5071d10e807really, what started this is my urge to make a little money for when I leave college. ive always thought of small businesses I can start in school without Mon, 22 Aug 2016 17:36:54 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/lighthouse.html36321339a776db60494bdfbf26c375a9 Lighthouse I saw a lighthouse in the deep gray fog In the distance signifying safe ground I can’t reach you I cry, I’ll never be found The light Mon, 22 Aug 2016 17:14:29 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/hello.htmla6d023a91000b5c682af335b2959b27cYou don't know what you're feeling You don't know who you are Why is this happening you ask? To people that are so innocent? You can’t understand what Mon, 22 Aug 2016 17:12:34 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/breathe.html37a4a9a25eabc25cd1b18db5b275fd63Hold on. Firm grip, higher and higher. Shed a tear, watch it evanescence Fear. Turn back? A voice appears and repeats his name. A quiet scream. Higher Mon, 22 Aug 2016 17:08:21 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/the-dog.htmlca35fedbce5fa9dca7f9bba374cc9c9cThe Dog If no one was there to hear her cry Was she really crying? Of course, if the dog could speak He would tell you how he comforted her How he chased Mon, 22 Aug 2016 16:59:43 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/all-too-late.html519bb5cc517fac774fba9fafd7d74d20It only makes it worse that my parents abused me. I've always come to wonder when would be the right time to end this madness.....end it all. I always Mon, 22 Aug 2016 16:47:21 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/the-demon.htmlac0249aa508f0fe6a0bca71657fba279The chase has begun, against the demon inside. Try to run away but you feed it, so it thrives. Sleep had never been the scariest thing to encounter, Mon, 22 Aug 2016 16:39:54 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/think-back.html7c399620a081c3bbf45e4e0538c9e860Those scars that we bear on our arms Those things that we have to hide from our family and friends Those things that haunt us everyday. Scaly, rough and Mon, 22 Aug 2016 16:36:46 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/why.html77c9360a79ade6509c9a4ac9d3a0483cWhy do you do this why do you try why do you sit here and ask yourself why, Going in circles till the end of time because your in denial and don't register Thu, 5 May 2016 10:12:40 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/ray-of-lght.htmle9d24d636f8187f5d87563950360fba7So I’ve been struggling with depression, There’s no price that can be paid no concession, I had been feeling so very low, Yet I just couldn’t let people Tue, 22 Mar 2016 14:38:53 -0400 https://www.depression-test.net/success-wont-stay-but-suffering-will.html8bdeb52861b3da011ddc9481141df5f6Life... It is full of mistakes. Goals that you work to... They go away for good after about 5 days. The bonds that you once had with them... It hurts Fri, 22 Jan 2016 21:26:06 -0500 https://www.depression-test.net/i-have-had-depression-all-my-life.htmla5caffc5386a00e36941ee99c1d96029I have had depression all my life,from childhood to now age 65. Why? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Wow! That is a simple question but requires Thu, 17 Dec 2015 10:25:14 -0500